It's me again

So I had my weekly weigh in last Thursday and I my weight and fat percentage are exactly the same. But the good news is that after being sick, I am finally getting back into the habit of getting up early to go walking. I am going to try to shoot for 6 am and walk until 7. It's getting hard to get going, because I open the front door to our townhome and it is very dismal outside- it is cold and dark and the majority of my lucky neighbors are still in bed. But I had my husband make me a playlist and that makes such a huge difference. I need to get new headphones though, I can't get mine to stay in my ears and it hurts my arms to keep them in my ear. I even jogged a couple of laps yesterday. I read that the more you are in shape, the easier it is to burn calories because you build up endurance and you can run longer. I really want to start doing 5Ks next year. We'll see- I am hoping- I have been such a non athlete my whole life.

Breast Cancer

I weighed myself today and lost 2 pounds. I feel like I am hovering around 190. I had been feeling sick so I got out of the habit of exercising. I was getting up early to go walking and I need to get back on that schedule. I was going to go today, but I got up with the baby last night and could not get back to sleep. I was watching a talk show yesterday with Melisa Etheridge. She said that she is now healthier than before being diagnosed with breast cancer. Having breast cancer forced her to be healthier.

Daily Toddler Wisdom

Just because it is called "toilet paper" does not necessarily mean it belongs in the toilet. (unless you are done using it of course!)

AAAUUUGGGG

I had another weigh in today. I gained 1 1/2 pound and some body fat. I have decided that I am going to have to start running if I want to lose the weight. Walking just isn't doing it for me. This week was terrible- talk about bad luck. Friday we went to a funeral of a close friend who killed himself and Tuesday Justin totalled his work van. We are just grateful that he was safe- and very lucky- he was on the freeway and a semi was involved. This week I have been having problems with waking up and feeling dizzy. So I have been having to get something to eat in the middle of the night- this is why I haven't been exercising. I am going to start up again though and hopefully next week will show some more progress. Maybe someday things will calm down. I guess nothing surprises me anymore.

CRAZY!

How did life get to be so crazy? Sometimes I feel I get worn out just by listening to my girls talk and talk and talk. The twins are preschoolers and there is nothing more satisfying to a preschooler than the sound of her own voice. That being said, I unfortunately have not been finding the time to exercise. I am lucky if I make it through the day sometimes.
On Friday I attended a funeral with my husband. It was for one of his best friends that committed suicide. Funerals always make you take a closer look at your life. I think when someone dies, it makes your imminent death seem more real. Especially when it is someone who is young. It is nice to sit and take a deep breath and thank god for another day to be a better person. With that thought, I hope it is a long time before I die because I have a lot of things I want to improve on. At the funeral, Adam's brother got up and it was supposed that he would give a nice talk on what a great guy Adam was, but he got up and said he had nothing to say and sat down. I hope that one day when people gather together to mourn my passing, that instead of sorrow, I hope that people will look back on my life and celebrate a life well lived. I guess you are wondering what this has to do with weight loss. I would have to say everything. If I live to be old and gray, I want those final years to be good years- full of energy and happiness. I don't see weight loss as a journey with a destination, but more of a life style change.

Weighed myself today

I weighed myself today and I lost a total of 1/2 pound this week. But I did lose a percentage of body fat. I am going to have to find a way to step it up a notch. Since January, I have lost a total of 6 pounds and 8% of my body fat. I have been doing pretty good at exercising, but it is hard for me to cut calories. Also, I want to start running, but the only time I have for exercise is first thing in the morning and I just don't have the energy to do anything more than walk. I have about 60 pounds before I reach my goal weight. At the rate I am going it will take years to reach it.